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he went on to answer it himself: “His unambitiousness.” He
meant to say that this individual had no ambitions, and it is a
great accomplishment to find oneself in such a situation.

His only ambition was to be a complete, a perfect
Swayamsevak.

What is the meaning of ‘Swayamsevak’? It means dedication
of the self, sacrifice of the self, to sacrifice the whole life for an
ideal. The life of the Param Pujya Guruji was illuminated with
the light of unbroken spirit of being a Swayamsevak, and to
attain which, he had abandoned all rest and repose.

Talking about his Sadhana, the most venerable Guruji has
written at one place: “There was a time when I aspired for
worship of the Lord, I wished to attain God. When I sought the
path of attainment of God, I was asked to go and clean the
utensils, sweep the place, clean the garden, take the cows for
grazing. I used to absorb myself into these activities without
desiring anything in return.” After he commenced his life in
the Sangh, he said: “I had before me the ideals of the Man. Dr.
Hedgewar and his life.” From this very imagination of complete
dedication arose the personality of a Swayamsevak, unbroken
spirit of being a Swayamsevak.

The Param Pujya Guruji witnessed many ups and downs
in his life. Of the eight siblings of him, he was the only one to
survive. When the only surviving child was a son and the
parents were afflicted with the sorrow of death of as many as
seven children, it was natural for them to have many aspirations
from him. His mother must have nursed great aspirations about
him, but the parents must have done everything that was
possible to realize their dreams. However, how must have the
parents felt when their son broke away from their dreams in
order to deviate to another path? It was natural for them to feel
sad. This son was proficient in playing the sitar and the flute.
He knew how to conquer others’ hearts. It was natural for the
mother to feel sorrow when the son started to tune his life with
the strings of spirituality. In order not to deliver more sorrow
to his mother, Madhavrao Madhu, the Param Pujya Guruji, left
his home and set out on the path of spirituality. He wandered